Real Kato Blog: Dating Update

Things are progressing at somewhat of a snail's pace... but I'm okay with that.

So I am in touch with the Professor. Her e-mail had her real name on it, so I Googled her. She is quite accomplished, as it turns out. Unfortunately, the photos of her on the Internet are not very flattering; the ones she had posted on her profile were much cuter. Now I'm not sure what to do. I know it shouldn't matter so much what she looks like... I HATE MYSELF FOR BEING SO SHALLOW. Really.

In other news, Lily (not her real name) is in touch with me again, and she is single again. This is the girl who dumped me before because, although she liked me, she just wasn't that attracted to me. This is one of those things that makes me believe in karma: you might say I am being punished by the universe for being shallow; or perhaps, I am now inflicting punishment on the universe for being so shallow towards me. Either way, it kind of sucks. Anyway, Lily drives me nuts because I keep thinking (dreaming?) that I still have a chance with her. I just need to GET OVER IT, I think.

But even with all this, I find I am remarkably at peace about my dating life. I am in no particular hurry. That reminds me: Kate had a really good article today, about being able to sit with emotions that come to you, and not obsessing about them. It's a zen thing. (One of these days I'll write a whole article that explains my zen-existentialist philosophy of life.) Go check out Kate's article, especially if you're feeling upset about something that's happening in your life right now. There's a good lesson about impermanence that everyone should heed.

Time to sneak in another American Idol post: Carrie Underwood is now leading on my score sheet. She was really good tonight.

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